Its been over a month since I've posted.  Nothing much has really happened.  I started texting and talking to a new girl named Jayme but she has already made it clear that she does not want a serious relationship which is fine.  Right now I think I am so confused that I really do not know what I want.

Anyways about Jayme.  She is 23, the same age as me, she is from here so we know a lot of the same people.  She works at the Mahogany Bar as a cocktail waitress so she is very much in the bar scene, which I have not really ever gotten into.  Our conversations are great there really haven't been that many awkward pauses.  We always have something to talk about.  Her looks are fantastic she is shorter than I am,  has straight dark brown hair,  really petite, and has stunningly beautiful hazel eyes but she wheres contacts so that could be it.  Unfortunately I do not think she is the one, not because she isn't ready for a committed relationship, but because she likes to get obliterated.  Some people may think obliterated is an over exaggerated word choice but it's not.  She texted me the other night and asked what I was doing.  I told her nothing just hanging out with my nephew.  Then this is what she said "I want to get drunk!  I don't want to remember anything!"  I said "That's nice!"  She is probably not the person I want to start a life with because preferably I would like to remember the moments we have together.

So now I'm here.  But I don't mind now.  Honestly I don't think my soul mate is even in United States.  I think she is elsewhere waiting for me to come find her.  In some foreign land feeling the same way that I do.  This summer I think I'll plan a little getaway adventure to some tropical place with white sandy beaches and clear sparkling blue water.  Maybe she'll be there whether visiting or being a local.  Who knows maybe we'll share a margarita or two!

Again if anyone is reading this thanks for taking your time this is just a relaxing way of getting all of my thoughts out in the open and out of my head.

"The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing." Edmund Burke

Well it's almost been a week or has been a week since my last post.  Today is my third day of classes and we have been sprinting through the first chapters.  Which isn't too bad unless you are not a programming major.

So I was supposed to go on a date the other night with a girl named Jessica.  Jessica is gorgeous she has blonde hair, blue eyes, and she looks shorter than me.  On that last comment you can probably tell I've not technically met her.  We met on app called Tinder.  It basically shows you pictures of the girl or guy, whatever you are into, and if you think they are attractive you swipe right or touch the heart(like button) if not then you swipe left or touch the x.  Anyways I had to work this past weekend so I got off late.  We had planned to go to a later movie on Saturday but she decided they were all too late and stopped the negotiations with me, by this I mean she stopped texting me :(.

The hardest thing about dating is the first date or meeting.  I'm a funny guy and I think I'm relatively attractive, at least that's what my mother says ha just joking.  After the first get together at least you'll know whether they are into you or if you are into them.  Like my last girlfriend, Tatum, we met at my friend Rachel's pool party.  I saw her and couldn't look at anyone else and her the same.  So I knew we were both into each other.  But she is a story for another time.

I'm kinda in a rut on dates.  I don't go out to bars so it's hard to meet new people.  I work every other week so hard to meet people at church, which I already know everyone there so been there done that, without them thinking you're a hethan for not coming every week.   I guess I'll have to start going out to meet girls but the problem with that is my friends don't go out.  So it'll take some convincing.

So once again I'll leave you with a picture and a quote thanks for reading if anyone is!  Comment if you're having the same problem meeting people as me.  It's fun to talk to others in the same boat.

"There is no passion to be found playing small, in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living."  Nelson Mandela

About Me

      My name is Matthew Levi Thacker.  I am a 23 year old that is from and resides in a small city in Mississippi named Purvis.  I decided to make this blog because I cannot seem to figure out my direction in life.  I'm just like any other young adult that has been broken up with and changed their major like a million times.  I'd like to throw my thoughts out here so I can read them later and say "Oh that's what I was thinking!"  Also if anyone else actually reads this thing then maybe I can humor all of you!
     So here is where I am at.  I just got out of a relationship (not by my choice) about three and half months ago.  We dated for two and a half years and I was going to ask her to marry me this past December but obviously never got the chance to.  Story of my life.  She told me that the spark wasn't there anymore and she no longer had the feelings for me that I had for her.  Which I'm sure one day I'll look back and say "Thank God!" because no one wants to be in a relationship where you do not feel the same way about each other.  I wish the best for her and her future.
     School, right the most aggravating but necessary thing we all have to do these days.  When I graduated high school in 2009 I was a straight A student and had the best outlook on college.  Really though on the inside I was burnt out.  I started my college career at University of Southern Mississippi as a double major in Mathematics and Sports Coaching.  Well I was dating another girl about that time (See a trend yet?) and we had been dating for almost two years at that point.  She decided at that point that she wanted some space to explore and see if she wanted to be in a serious relationship at that time.  So all my focus was not on school and I flunked out and lost my scholarship.  I then enrolled to PRCC a junior college about 20 miles away and changed my major to Physical Therapy.  Still being burnt out and jumping from girl to girl I ended up not even not trying on my academics. So I took a year off.  Now I'm here now a Computer Networking major at PRCC with three semesters left to graduate.
     That's me and where I am at now.  I'm just a man looking for other half in a big confusing roller coaster ride of a world.  A lot of my friends think of me as a hopeless romantic.  Maybe I am but one day I'll find her maybe chase her to an airport to keep her from leaving or maybe even kiss her in the rain.  Where ever she is though I hope she wants to find me as much as I want to find her.  Thanks for taking your time and reading.  I think after every post I'm going to leave a quote.  Nothing gets me going like a good quote.  So we'll start with one of my favorites.

"Today you are You that is truer than true.  There is no one that is youer than You."  Dr. Seuss